~i'm right in the middle~
im fighting myself tonight, not wanting to write in my blog. i was reading it all today, and i realize it's not so bad as i thought. it's showing some good character from me :p
and tonight... im kinda hyper... kinda blah...
im supposed to see cate tomorrow, but i havent talked to her the last few nights. she's not on atm either.. i don't even have her phone number lol.
im not stressing over it.
so what's new?
im moving out soon! me and tj are getting our own place. it's all picked out, it's nice all out in the ghetto. everytime i drive by, it's like a block party of african american brothers and sisters everywhere. things are broken, trees are burned, litter is everywhere, rent is very cheap :D
but really, i am excited. it's really really cheap, which helps me accomplish my goals sooner. it's also cheap enough where me and tj both can get our own rooms. initially we were gonna have me in one room, and him in the living room of a one bedroom. everything around my mom's place is so expensive.
there's also the added stress of another job.
no no, im not working a second job again.
my mom's work actually called me recently. see.. when my mom was telling me she needed more space in her house since like 20 people live here, and when we were initially looking at really expensive places, i was kinda stressing about bills and money. i could have made rent and everything fine with what im making at speedway, it just would have left very little to put on top of my car payments each month. and im really trying to pay it all off asap.
so i go to my boss and i say 'hey boss, if there is anyway that i can take on more responsibility and possibly make more money, i am more than willing to do whatever it takes.' and of course i explain whats up with my living arrangements.
one or two days later i get a phone call from liebert.. a warehouse job. the place my mom works. i go in the next week for the interview, and damnit, i tol nail it. i felt better leaving there than i have felt leaving any interview ever.
it helps that the lady i interviewed with had hired my mom and that was the first thing we started talking about lol.
anyway, so like the next day after that my boss at speedway is all like 'Aric... if i talk to my bosses, and i tell them i need an assistant, how would you feel about taking that?'
and god damn, i already feel terrible enough about going to the interview. now i gotta tell my boss that i cant accept that til i hear whats up with liebert.
i felt so terrible!
i really really do like my speedway job. there is no part that i really despise, or that is difficult. i am continuosly learning and actually having fun there. regulars still make me smile lol
and that's important to me, because i know im going to hate my job at liebert's, even thought i will be able to do it (and it's 5 more dollers an hour...)
the next thing i had to do was take a test for liebert. the test was made by the same people that make the ACT for colleges. and i can actually use the scores i got on that test for other jobs if they require it... pretty crazy, yea?
well, it was incredibly early one morning, i didnt get much sleep. i did go in with my monsters and everything, and an incredibly huge headache (which only got worse the more we tested)
4 hours of testing, math, reading, etc.
fun fun ._.
the lady that gave the test (i got her number btw :p ) called me back later that day and told me i got 6's on everything except reading, i got a 7 on that. it was out of 7... and they only required three's, so i did really well lol
it's good to know that even after high school, im still smart.
so, that's about where i am with that. they've started my background check, calling my boss at speedway and TJ. they both told me they gave positive reviews, so that's good too.
but at the same time, it's like really weighing down on me, stressing me out. i feel like im going back into a navy environment, being in the warehouse and all. it'll be nice that i -can- quit if i really want to, but still..
i've always said that if i took one thing from the navy it was that no matter where i end up in life, money is not important enough to me to regret going into work everyday. money is not important enough to hate my life everyday. and i like speedway..
i just don't know.
i kinda wish they never called me lol
i mean, the app i put in was back in jan or feb... perhaps they pulled my resume up on monster, but i don't know.
i guess this post isnt turning out so bad after all, lot's of stuff going on in my brain lately.
i've really really been thinking deeply about females. more than anything about what kind of girl i want to date, and what would it be like if i was dating half the girls i lust over.
i can't really say i lust over girls too bad... i don't feel like.. it's a huge focus of mine
see, i do work in an envirornment with really atractive females at the moment, and a lot of times i am working with another guy. and i do get to interact with these females.
i just wonder to myself what it really would be like to date the girl standing in front of me, and realize to myself that she would probably not be too interested in most of the things i am interested in. that i probably could not impress her with most of the things i do.
and i realize that that is not negative. that's just not who i am.
i think it's really cool that im learning and really growing like that.
"I haven't been quite the same,
So sure the story of my life would never change.
But in a bright-eyed way, she rinsed out the soap in my eyes,
And wrote a song that I'm about to sing.
She's a magnetic girl
That I hardly even know.
So this is not another love song.
Just a list of things that I should know,
And everyone should know that:
1. You got to take it kind of slowly
2. You got to hurry up and make your move
3. You got to tell her how you're feeling
And
4. You got to be the perfect gentleman.
When you shake the walls, you got to make 'em bend, yeah.
You got to show her that
She's the balance beam
And I keep falling all around her fairy tale.
(her fairy tale)
We took a walk in the rain.
I suggested, she confess:
"There's a heart nearby to cast that shame."
Stay cool.
But I'm giddy like a school boy.
You got to handle with care:
This is not a toy.
Then gradually we touched.
And though our clothes were wet, we sat and smiled.
I never thought I'd smile so much
The first kiss always says the most."
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