because mad cow disease was already taken.

so hello, good friend! i wanna be next to you.

so take me! and save me! and change me! and make me! and embrace me! and engrave my heart for you! nonnono cuz i cant go on w/o you

and no! none of it true! cuz i never knew you

and the truth of i is, i wanna be like you!

but now im on my way to maKE this claim, ill make it stay, that NO! none of its true, cuz i never knew you!

and the truth of it is, i wanna be like you!

from my heart, for it's true~

cuz i never knew you

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wow, im not so good at typing fast. at least not this song...

so what is really good? kinda stressing out lately lol. ive got a bajilion things i need to do, and im so busy all the time and tired! and the last few days all i want to do when i get off work is nap and sleep and then not sleep durign the night so when i go into work im kinda tired lol. and its so hot and humid there, im like sleep walking... like... cranberries zombeh kinda stuff.

i just have a lot of bills and stuff coming up soon, and things i have to get done to be responsible. a lot of it has to do with the apartment and stuff, and it does bother me that TJ likes to help me do nothing.

the only thing hes good at lately is bitching. i swear to god i just wanna throw him in his room w/ nothing but his own shit and a box of tampons.

i swear to god.

speaking of God, i was thinking today how the weather is all random and crazy and how it could be the end of the world or w/e.

but i also thought that there have probably ben millions of times in the earth's history where people thought exactly the same thing i did, because the weather is always crazy.

im talking to cassandra again from high school.

that really is the most exciting thing i guess with me.

it was so refreshing... like.. all the people i meet these days dont really trust me.. dont really open up to me. keep me at a distance, and i can understand. the majority of people in my situation are creeps, and it sucks. im a nice guy.

but yea, it's just like... we drove around a bit, and she just talked. i mean, i talked to, right, but it was like... it really felt good to be trusted like that. she's totally an awesome person, and it was cool to get feedback on how i acted in high school and stuff. i guess i havent really thought about it too terribly much, but i have changed a lot since then.

especially with how i value other people, and their opinion. i guess i dont live my life like im inside a video game as much anymore.

i dunno if thats the right analogy.

any case... work is fun. third shift soon. first shift hours are killing me.

my apartment has stuff in it!